Some things are better left unsaid

So..today my boss comes in and tells me that he is glad I'm doing okay in this LDR thing, but have I ever thought of speeding the process up. He continues on to say that by the time he returns from Germany I'll be 37 and getting older for someone wanting to start a new fam and build a new life. WOW!!! and when you thought to say this to me, what did you hope to gain was my first thought?? Why would you say this to me? why would you remind me that the years are far away?

oh well, I'm over it now, but had to vent....think before you speak!

oh...the heartache! :)

Well my honey has been gone now for about a month. I miss him so very much, but I'm surviving. I have decided the key to LDR is communication and that he does very well.... I am looking into different activities to pour myself into to keep myself focused. so far, personal training, working out, the Bible, and salsa lessons are the top of my list. I am looking into volleyball too. AWWWWW...don't know how good of an idea that is, but I'm gonna give it a shot.

So - today's question??? How the heck do you shut off all the people trying to "speak" into your life! I'm exhausted with hearing "are you guys okay, do you guys still want to make it work, are you depressed, are you getting married....." Really people - if I don't initiate conversation about my love being gone please let me have the peace not thinking about it. Do you really think it's not on my mind all the time, do you really beleive I ever "forget" he is not here or that this weekend I will NOT be seeing him? Do you think I'm happy today that we have not talked! This is where I beg for some common sense. Watch me, if I look happy and content just chill with me, don't try to make me feel how you think I should feel.

OMG - I am sooooo tired of "so...now he's gone, what are you going to do?" Are you serious???What's the right answer to that? Do you want me to lay down and die?? No way! The independent, strong willed, woman of God and mother of 3 that I was before him is still here so why would I turn into something I'm not because his career has him away for now. If anything I am optimistic. He is doing what he needs to do for his career and I'm doing what I need to do and when we are back together we will be stronger than ever!!!! Alright - let me know your comments; I'm out!

AWWWW...Did you lose control???

awww...now your sad??? Did you lose control?? LOL That's exactly my thoughts when I see my ex trying to bully me into the reaction he wants me to have. For 14 years I stayed in a emotionally abusive relationship where I raised the kids, kept the home, and ensured I advanced his career. I don't know when he forgot who I was, but the same strong woman that did that and prayed fervently for a change is the same woman that received a release from God a long time ago and through Him achieved what others thought was not possible.

Yes, my announcement was a shocker to all when I said "I'm moving out in 2 weeks." The outside world was unaware of my prayers, planning, and patience as I waited for the time that God either changed his heart or freed me. You may not believe a woman can be released from marriage,but you won't change my mind about the freedom I have been given (check out www.divorcehope.com)

Ex never believed I'd bounce. Never believed I would contradict my Christian beliefs. Didn't think I had it in me. Well, I did and hear I am; happier than I have been since I was 18 years old. I have an awesome career, new car, new home, fantastic kids, and after getting myself together and falling in love with me again I have been given an amazing man! Truly amazing......beyond my hopes and dreams! Now...let me return my experiences to all struggling as I was.....you can get out, get on, and get better!

Here I Am

Aight - I have never done this before, but with everything going on I thought maybe it would be thereaputic. Here's the deal - I'm in my 30s. I left my husband of over 14 years a bit over a year ago and I have LOVED LOVED LOVED life since. I have had a blast, made new friends, and rediscovered myself. I have 3 children and they have learned what "happy mommy" looks like. Well, while I have been "doing me" I oopsed upon a man "doing him" that I caught feelings for. We fought it and fought it hard and I'll be darned, I fell in love! hmmmmmm now what!!!! Not only did I fall for this man that I did not mean to fall for, but he is moving to another country and we have to either let it go or do the dreaded Long Distance Relationship thing! yea, yea, yea.....we ended up in a relationship. What am I thinking??? I have no idea....